The most amazing friends on Earth

There are few things that I like less than being tied to tubes and machines. There is no prison like immobility. A few days after my surgery, they took out most of my tubes :-) Good times for me. Today, I am at home, sitting in my living room, wondering, "What now?" I can't keep my eyes open for every long, though I'm not always sleeping when they are closed... they just won't stay open.

Getting out of bed in the morning hurts more than anything else. I guess that I'm just sore after lying still for so long. Once I get going, I'm okay, though. But wow that first hour is a killer.

I want to thank you, my dear friends, for the amazing amount of love you have showered on me in the last 2 weeks. For the beautiful women in my life....Most girls in my life have been smothering, but you have not. You have helped me to make fun of our boys...err, men as we never have before. Thanks for cutting my hair before I got stuck in a hospital for so long. Thank you for bringing me hugs and kisses while I was there. Thank you for helping me wash my hair when I can barely move and doing all kinds of things for me that I could not (and still can not) do for myself.

And you incredible men.... I can never tell you how much you have meant to me this week. Never have I felt so safe as when I fell asleep in a hospital bed holding your hand and woke up 20 minutes later with you still there. And when you were leaned up against a wall and I stood up and walked to you, you hugged me tight and didn't let go but rested your cheek on my forehead and just held me, never have I felt so much love and protection. When you brought your guitar and played and sang praises to our Father while I faded in and out, it brought joy to my heart. When you held me up as I tried walking down the hall of the hospital those first few times, I was not afraid of falling, because I knew you would catch me. I had no idea that you guys were so priceless to me. I hope I have you til the day I die.

Wow... I love each of you so much. Don't feel like your job is over though. I'm in the same condition as I was yesterday, I'm just living it at home where there are no bars to hold onto and no nurses to wake me at 3:00 in the morning. I still need you, and I can't tell you what a blessing it is to know that I still have you.