The Social Butterfly Award

When I was a freshman in college, I was a bit out of control. My first class was at 11:00am, so I felt free to stay up late and go out with my friends... what was I thinking? Anyhow, at the end of the year, our dorm had these "awards" that everyone in the dorm (about 250 girls) had voted on. I won two awards that year, the Social Butterfly Award and the Night Owl Award. Oh, I was so proud of myself. My mother made fun of me relentlessly. Hee hee... that makes me laugh.

Well, the Night Owl thing has slowly gone away, but the Social Butterfly lives on. This last week or two, I have been surrounded by loving friends. In fact, there was very little time that I was alone.... which was totally okay with me. Last night, when the last of my company left, I felt incredibly alone. It worries me a little when I'm alone these days. What if I fall and bust my incision? What if someone calls or comes to the door and I can't answer 'cuz I can't find the energy to get up? I need someone here when I take a shower or bath... just in case.

Cindy had gone to a conference and Rachel was working late. Mike, Jess, and Sarah have a life and I get tired of requiring all their attention, so I decided to leave them alone. Q hurt his ankle and couldn't come over if he wanted to. Jason is doing a conference this weekend (don't forget to pray for him by the way) so I couldn't call him. All I had was my teddy bears to talk to.... and despite popular belief, they don't talk back. I sure tried though. I finally gave up, and tucked Dinky under my head (he's the perfect pillow size for me) and gave Aiden a kiss goodnight and went to sleep.

God has certainly made me a social creature. I have to give Mike props on his obsession with community these days. I most certainly need people, in fact, I need them desperately. He always provides me exactly what I need. I have never been alone when I truly needed someone. It has never mattered how I feel, what country I'm in, who's mad at me, how long it's been since I've seen someone.... I'm never alone. That's nice. It's not good for man to be alone, ya know ;-)